Half Way.... Well, almost

I nIII  iiiIIStop, make it stop.  I'm not ready to be halfway done.  I LOVE this adventure way too much and I'm not ready.  Not ready for the cameras to fade, not ready for the grulling butt kicking workouts to slow down, not ready for the pampering to end.  I want this to last forever.... but with all good stories, they must come to an end.  I like to think that this is just the first in a series of novels filled with new adventure and wonder for me.  So, why do I love it so much?  Well, I've been thinking about this long and hard.  November 1st marks the one year anniversary of my Divorce.  Truth be told, it has been the best year of my life.  New starts, new adventures, new me.  A new job,
a new Sexy Me and a new outlook on life.  This journey has changed me in more ways than I think I can even comprehend.  I jump out of bed with excitement and energy, something that I think is an amazing task at 4:30AM by anyones standards.  I don't dread the closet, infact I look forward to going into my closet and putting on an outfit that was once too tight, only to find that it fits just right, or even better, it's now too big!!!  I love that I'm showing my daughter that I can be Super Woman!! I can fill our day with all kinds of crazy activities and hold us together perfectly.  I was worried that this challenge would push me over the edge with activities, but the daily workouts have actually helped my stress level to go way down.  I'm proud of who I am, what I've become and what I stand for.  My daughter is going to look back at photos of the two of us and see not just a Mom who was there for her, but a Mom who was confident, happy, strong and a fighter... Always a fighter.  I think that is why I like the boxing so much.  I can be the physical fighter that I've mentally had to be for the past few years.  I've had several Ah-ha moments these past few weeks and I hope that I have many more.  My line of thinking has changed from the do it to survive mode, to the do it because I CAN!  I don't know if people can see the changes that I'm feeling on the inside.  I always came across as someone that had it together, even through the mess, but inside I was barely hanging on.  Now, BRING IT ON!  I can do this and then some.

Family Vacation Survival

Well, Portland was a huge success!  I got off the plane not sure how my weekend with the family would go.  Now, I LOVE my family more than anything and they have been my rock these past few years, but I was so scared on how I was going to fight the good fight to workout, eat right and not drink and TON.  When we get together, as most families do, it revolves around great food, gallons of wine and laughter, lots and lots of laughter.  While this is exactly what I needed, I also know that this would hinder my progress if I let it.  I gave myself a two glass of wine limit and promised myself that I wouldn't even do the two glasses if I didn't need to.
Quick flash forward through the weekend.  I kicked ass in a kickboxing class, took a huge long run down the coast and had perfect time to reflect on how much I've accomplished over the past year.  My family and I rocked the Color Run and had a blast shaking color all over each other.  Meals were no problem.  Each meal was met with strict discipline and I overcame all food obstacles.  The wine, well, I only have one glass per day and I was so proud.
My family was so full of excitement for me and this adventure.  Questions, praise, support and love.... all things that made me feel like all this hard work has already been worth it and I crave more tough times ahead to prove that this is my new adventure and I'm ready for it!!